This blog is simply going to be a record of my journey to become the Christian, wife and mother that God has intended for me to be. If I am the only soul that ever reads it, it will still be worth the time I take to invest in solidifying my thoughts by putting them into written word. If it helps even one person have an easier journey because of the mistakes I have made in mine, then it will be above and beyond my wildest expectations.
I can not promise that it will always be upbeat and rejoicing – though God has blessed me with a pretty even temperament, I do still experience those extremes brought on by stress, emotions and hormones – if you don’t believe me, ask my dear husband who has lovingly listened to many a tirade and held me through many a tear!
Also keep in mind that I am working on conquering the need to be perfect. One of the ways I have been convicted about this is in the area of “always having a godly response” – I have expected myself to have that response instantly and unquestioningly. I am realizing (this is probably one of those “Well, duh” moments) that God doesn’t mind when I am frustrated or even when I ask “why” or even when I am so mad I want to spit nails. He made me this way and He understands my emotional needs. The only time that these become sinful is when I dwell on them and don’t move on in the grace He has so abundantly provided. With this in mind, I will always try to come back with how God has helped me work through those emotions and brought me to rest again in His loving arms.
This blog will NOT be an avenue to blame others. Though I probably could find someone to pin every one of my foibles to and come out squeaky clean in the blame department, I know this isn’t healthy or godly. No matter what the contributing factors, I will take personal responsibility for any wrong attitudes or actions and for any messes I may find myself in as a result.
Now that you know a little of my heart behind this blog, I will warn you that I am a VERY visual learner. This means that one of the greatest avenues of growth for me is through reading. You will see lots of different books mentioned (that is a whole separate “extreme” I could tell you about) and some of my posts may actually end up looking somewhat like a book review. This will simply be because the best way for me to truly absorb and then apply truths is by reading them and then putting what I have learned into writing and eventually into an action plan. I won’t bore you with my action plans, but I will be putting the truths that impact me the most into written form to help me make them a part of my life.